No, it’s not to blog again, though I do hope to return to blogging regularly. I realize this blog post is out of the blue after two years of not posting at all, but I wanted to share my Christmas resolution.
My Christmas resolution is to “Suck it up, buttercup”.
To give you all a little background, I have to tell you that 2010 has been one tough year weight-wise. I’ve struggled with my weight more this past year than I have since I lost the weight in 2003/4 and during the five years of maintenance since. In the past couple of months though, something clicked for me, I made some changes to my behaviours and have been consistently making better choices. Yay, moi!
I still feel a little fragile though and am staying extra vigilant over this Christmas season to stay on course and keep making better choices. And because I’m being so careful, I had a little fit when we received a gift basket at the office filled with chocolate and baked goods this week. I started to laughingly (but secretly seriously) whine and complain to my co-workers about the food and even went so far as to start to suggest that we parcel it out to the employees and make them take it home so it wasn’t left at the office to tempt anyone.
Suddenly I heard what I was saying. How inconsiderate was I being, whining about a gift and trying to prevent others from enjoying it? Suddenly my whole frame of reference changed and I realized that wasn’t the right thing to do.
That’s when I heard the “Suck it up, buttercup” in my head and I realized that instead of an opportunity to fail, this was an opportunity to succeed. I’ve read that willpower is a muscle and while I don’t think we can (or should) rely on willpower all the time, it’s a handy muscle to have strong during temptations like the holidays. Now every time I pass those treats at the office now instead of feeling deprived that I can’t have one, I feel like I’m exercising my willpower and strengthening it by deciding I’d rather not have one and would rather choose to stay focused and staying on track.
Six years in maintenance and I’m still learning new lessons. I love it.
